sometimes i feel i gotta (GET AWAY)

if you can't tell in my posts...i absolutely loathe pittsburgh, pennsylvania. boring is an UNDERSTATEMENT. & when there is something to do ; its crap! i don't even get hype to go out here. like why should i have to make my own fun in the club? FREAKING GAYYYY! anyways. I'm going to Atlanta in three weeks SCORE! i miss i there plus i miss my friends down there. plus freaknic is that week! hahaha its gonna be crazyyy! & in may im going to miami for memorial day weekend. GONNA BE CRAZY! my brothers are going. O GAWD! it's gonna be nothing nice. i just have to get out of this crap town like seriously cnt take it. i can not wait to graduate and get the eff up outta here! anyways i just want to spit some hot ish right quick you know. im finna take y butt to bed. soy muy consado! yea i speak spanish occasionally lol. PEACE LOVERS!

fashion[[istas]]

the dictionary defines fashion as;; a prevailing custom or style of dress, etiquette, socializing.

with that said i must say that fashion is lacking in SO MANY areas! now let me just say ; I am no "fashionista" (i hate that word lol) but I LOVE FASHION! since i was little I've ALWAYS loved clothes, shoes, bags, accessories, the whollleeee nine! i live in Pittsburgh & the fashion is sub-par & thats me being nice its actually freaking terrible. Let me just give you a taste of what you can find on 90% of Pittsburgh girls in 2010. I'll do a top 10 list from head to toe lol

1. bad weave ie. 27 piece -_-
2. bamboo earrings ; at least 2 pair.
3. mr. T chains ie. name plates ; rope chains
4. plastic colored jewelry x_x
5. screen tee's REALLY CHEAP UGLY ONES from wet seal
6. 12 million crappy bangles on each arm
7. colored jeans [STILL]
8. rubber bands on ya jeans? saw this the other day i dnt get it
9. jordans every style on FEMALES (terrible)
10. pointy toe plastic colored pumps

Anyways, thats just a taste. Just because i didn't address your fashion fuxk up doesnt make you fashionable. I'm not saying im the best dressed or that my style is what one should follow, but i do like to stand out. I do stay up with the latest trends & the clothes I wear, I wear them well. No sloppy toppy over here lol! I just feel like people are so all about let me match these colors with my eye & hair color and i look so "BADD" umm okay i guess. I RARELY ever match! I just know how to dress. I get a lot of negativity from people about the way I dress, because I'm "really out there" I guess. I wear over sized bows in my hair, crazy tights, crazy jewelry, bright clothes & crazy patterns. I LOATHEEEEE shopping in pittsburgh but we have no tax on clothes ; for obvious reasons since our clothes are CRAP! but watevs. I'd much rather shop at a thrift store in California with my aunt. I'ts not always about spending hella money on ur "apple bottoms & rocawear" lol its about what you get and how you wear it. I'm just glad I don't conform to the crapy way most of these girls in Pittsburgh dress, but I wish I didn't have to look a this crap either. I think the worse thing is that girls still wear Jordans HEAVY!!!! like for instance some oreo jordan came out (i dunno what they're called) but i saw a lot of ppl talkin bout them & a lot of em were girls who actually bought them BLAHHHH! just stop !! you spent like 80-100$ on an oreo shoe. you coulda bought some cute heels! SERIOULSY GROW UP! where are you running to that you need so many pairs of sneakers? okay im venting now. . . i just wanted to address fashion. im out!

DAMAGE [[control]]

okay lets just note that it is 5:11 am & im up doing damage control. as if my life couldn't get any more ridiculous. . .it does. disclaimer: i am not in any way shape or form pissed off, sad or embarrassed okay so i have been blogged ABOUT. by my ex *rolls eyes. um okay let me just say. i could give two squirts about what ANYONE has to say about me. People talk, thats why God gave us mouths correct. . .but my issue is that i Jensen Taylor don't even put very personal things into my blog (or twitter for that matter. bc apparently I'm married to my twitter). So why would one feel it is okay to express said "issues" via an open blog. now i understand its ur blog ur feelings partially ur business yadda yadda ya. . .but Jensen's business is the focus. let me just quote some of the blasphemys that were typed about me. "She reminds of every other girl now. She acts like she doesn't care about a thing, she's loud, her and her friends just gossip, she's headed back to her spoiled ways, she isn't sweet anymore, and the list goes on." okay now anyone that knows me KNOWS i'm nothing like "every other girl" um its not that i don't care about anything. i care about LOTS of things. these things just so happen to revolve around MY HAPPINESS. you wanna know who makes Jensen happy??? JENSEN! the same chick thats been doin it for the past 20 years. my carefree attitude comes from the fact that people have done nothing but prove to be disappointments (not everyone) but i have NEVER disappointed myself & there are very FEW ppl that i can say this applies to. so theres that theory of me not caring. . .NEXT im loud. . .okayyy! i LAUGH loud. thats about it. my voice is pretty average unless im doing things that require a yell. NEXT me & my friends just gossip. . .not true. we have VERY intellectual conversations. most people couldn't even grasp the things we discuss +plus HOW WOULD YOU KNOW? umm headed back to my spoiled ways? i should just skip this one bc this involves noone besides me lori &margaret & a few others that spoil me. im not sweet anymore? just licked my arm. . .i taste just like CANDY! anyways the point of it all is that. . .i do me (like im effin myself) at all times. i dnt care if the next person judges me but dnt make it that much easier by blowin down on a shorty. this blog, MY twitter, & my fb are 30% of my life. u dnt know half the things i do in the course of 24 hours so lets just leave it like that. please & thank you! <--innocent me! no make up...curly, messy hair. just normal! this is me all the time. . .

i love ya like. . . .

title from one of crazy mariah carey's songs off her new cd lol! i love that cd. . . . anyways. i'm supposed to be typing a paper ; on a movie i DID NOT WATCH. smh i was in class skyping txtn & tweeting [[story of my life]] anyways its march and its getting warm! YAYYY! all the snow is melted & the rivers are flooding lol watever pittsburgh get over yourself. anyways i've been missing some of my friends lately =/ i got to see my dominoes yday & syd hopefully tomorro! i taked to my wifey kristina who i havent talked to in MONTHS! i freaking miss her! so im supposed to be going to ATL next month to see her and to go to freaknic!!! POW POW POW! im geeked! talk about butt buddies! o my gawd freshman yr me & her did EVERYTHING! its gonna be nothin nice next month in ATL plus we may bothe be going to CALI for grad school/law school =) that will be A MESS lmao! anyways im sitting here txtn my sis bianca about how OVER ppl we are ;; basis= GIRLS AINT WORTH A DAMN & NEITHER ARE GUYS lol im so over everybody! ppl just really kill me now a days. but its to be expected. i don't expect to much from people now a days. i'm not bitter or anything lol not at all. i mean i live an awesome life; im never wanting for anything. & i have so many people that love me & are always in my corner. but some people are just utterly ridiculous! all i wanna do is graduate and get the eff outta this crap town called PITTSBURGH! welp thats all for now lovers. . . just a little update on meeeee!

roger that...

its been like a month & im terribly sorry. lets see...what happened in february? superbowl...saints won =/ um valentines day was nice of course =) idk what else minus that massive snowstorm lol. i was snowed in 90% of februaray but i just had to come and say something on my lovely blog lol. o yea me & my bestest have a joint blog that im going to need you guys to check out...the link is ->ericaandjensonnaturallybad.blogspot.com/<- also i have once again been the product of internet drama which i will discuss in my next blogg lol u guys are in for a LAUGH...but thats all for nowme on valentines day...

so babyyy let it snow

so it did about 2 ft of snow in pittsburgh yday. we had a state of emergency & everything. if u were caught driving you would be fined...AWESOME! i had plans this weekend cuh! but, i'm freaking sick anyways. my nephew got me sick =/ lil lame!! but last weekend was rather awesome. well friday not so much...me & my cousin were having THEE WORST BOY PROBLEMS EVER...so bad that we got a bottle of wine lmao...but saturday was cool. me jada(my cousin) and erricka(my bestie) went to youngstown to see my sisters & my fave...i also saw some loser face cuh lls. but anyways we went to this girl kyes party at this hoodrat bar then went to an iota party=/ it was actually pretty okay though. we had fun...im terribly sick right now...i just blanked out for like 10 minutes typing this...i should probly take my butt to bed huh...later loves

Can u Be my B A B Y?

On Monday January 18th a star was born...my sister had her 3rd baby...my niece angie'nae was born =) yayyy I love her like words can't explain she's awesome. I watched my sister give birth and it was fn disgusting man swear I'm never having kids now lol. But anyways...I just had to tell you guys that!! Sooo here she is :)

song lyrics

From time to time I'm gonna post random song lyrics...okay? Okay !!

- I know sometimes you feel you're batteling an army just to love me boy, trust me baby imma do you better.
-i'll give you all I'm worth, from my head down to my shoes. And girl if we gone work then I need the same from you.
-you kept me on this pedastal no matter how muh Iet you down. With all my infidelity you loved me so incredibly. Inside I'll fall apart if you ever love someone instead of me.
-you want a husband but no one has a cape.
- rather lose love then to move on never knowing what it feel like
-regular girl celebrity dreams she is 90210
-baby I'm so proud, proud to be your girl. You make the confusion go all the way from this cold and mixed up world
-my punch lines like gut checks I'm raw dog I'm rough sex

....I'll add more in other blogs....

if you really put me on, put yourself on then...

When i first started blogging, I got a lot of different opinions from different people. Some positive, some negative. Obviously the negative didn't phase me at all. But I find it funny when I am criticized for something that slowly turns into a huge trend. I have always been "different" when described by others, as well as when I describe myself. I don't do things to fit in with the crowd, I do things bc its what I like. When i first go my blogg it was to express myself...not cuz everybody else had one...i shortly got my twitter thanx to my blogg followers. Ppl thought i was so corny for having a twitter man i swear but now EVERYBODY has one. But the point I am making is that I have always been diffeerent, i take everybody's criticizm and run with it. I don't care if people call me weird or strange, I'm not basic. I don't do basic things, I don't dress basic. Thats just not me. I've just always been different. I'm not gonna act like I've never in life looked like the girl standing next to me. but a big majority of what I do is something to stand out. It could be the music I listen to, the way I dress, the way I talk...watever. But it all gets criticized. The biggest criticizm I get would have to be the music I listen to and the way I dress. I listen to all music & I disect it. I LOVEEE MUSIC! I love music that challenges my mind, something I hear and i pause it and rewind it so I can better understand it. I look up words that I don't know (i was taught that in school though). I feel like if you love something or are passionate about something you should fully understand it. Like look at every aspect of things. With music, I love it. I debate it with anyone so I take time to fully understand it. I will listen to anything. I don't mean any rap rnb or country either. I listen to heavy metal, classical, punk rock, gangster rap, indi, pop...watever! If the music says something that I can relate I'll listen! Same goes with clothes! I'll shop ANYWHERE! Thrift stores are amazing...not here in pittsburgh though =( but ill take a bunch of things and throw it together. Thats just what I do. I love being different. I love when the "weird" things I do become the "in" thing. I like people that can relate to me and my individuality though. I like ppl that are on the same level as me and can challenge me. I can't deal with people who I have to dumb myself down for. Anyways I'm getting off topic. The point is I'm different and always have been. Some may evene call me anomalous...! Everybody can't be different but don't criticize people bcuz u placed urself in a bubble of mediocracy!

im a dic...im addicted to you

so with my last blogg i did a list of addictions. so im going to do another one...to see if anything has changed lol...so here goes it lmao.



o01..being happy(w/myself,friends,fam,n relationships)

o02..SUCCESS(in school)

o03..my iPhone(its just AMAZING :))

o04..texting(my friends & stupid boys)10,000 tweets in a month sheesh

o05..late night fone calls :)

o06..goodmorning txt

o07..naked juice(mango)

o08..uggs(so comfy)

o09..good music(hov of course,wale,lupe,beyonce,a.keys...)

o10..Bad Girls Club(natalie)

o11..teen mom

o12..90210

o13..trey songz yuuummmmm

o14..healthy natural hair :)

o15..wine :)

o16..shopping of course but thats wayyy to obvious

o17..ralph lauren...not POLO....ralph the nigga at the top...owlll shorty looks great in it!

o18..BET's the game

o19..graduating in 2011 =)

o20..friends fam lovers

pray for haiti♥

im taking the time out from trivial things to continue to send my prayers up for the people in Haiti. it seems like things are getting worse from yesterday but hopefully with all of the prayers and donations things will make a turn around...so donate wat u can via txt through http://www.yele.org/ Twitter has been booming with status' about donating and adding twibbons in support as well as just sending up your prayers. so please do wat you can for the people of haiti...it is soo necessary :) i donated...did you???

& me & you belong

First off b4 I start writing...I'm clearly doing this from my iPhone and it took a whole 5 minutes to go into landscape mode...WTF?!? but anyways...this blogg has nothing to do with the title, I'm just listening to smash into you. 2010 just started and it's pretty good. Minus the fact that i need a freaking loan for skool so I am going to take the rest of my non major classes at community college so that I can still graduate on time. But I'm not letting things that are out of my control affect me. Things could be so much worse. So I am going to appreciate each and every one of Gods many blessings, good or bad. I have been given a lot of amazing ppl and I have also had many negative people be removed from my life. I feel like at this point I'm trying to suck he poison out of my life as well as make things right with some people. I have two bestfriends that I have known since I was 5 and I barely talk to them just bcuz all of our lives are busy but we are slowly changing that. It makes me happy to talk to them a few times a week...I really miss them. I have also noticed that some ppl just aren't meant to be in my life. No matter how right it seems everyone isn't meant to ne there forever and I'm ok with that. Does it bother me? at times...but I do realize some things just are not meant to be. Everything that looks good isn't always good for you lol this goes for girls and guys alike. With time I am learning a lot and all I can do is embrace watever God has in store for me and stay as positive as humanly possible :) peace lovers I'm crazy tired...I think I'll blogg about my 2010 addictions tomorro! Yess sounds like an awesome plan!


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90210 basic

So wale has a song called 90210 which is basically about a girl trying to live "that life" trying to fit in and tryin to be something she is totally not. I see this ALL THE TIME in Pittsburgh ughhh it's so freaking annoying! Me and erricka have this conversation damn near daily bcuz we see it way to often. I just can't understand how people can focus their lives on trying to be someone else! It's one thing to try and better yourself but when you are living outside your means trying to keep up with everyone else you are just doin way to much. People need to just stay in their freaking lane. I promise we won't hate you if you stay true to yourself and furthermore...who cares what other people think? I kno I damn sure don't but I mean watever! Be a freaking trendsetter or something lol.


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2009 rap up

2009 was...A YEAR lmao idk how else to explain it...it came and went and yea that was about it. i had to dump my old blogg...90% of that is not me anymore. I wouldnt say imma "new person" but half of that stuff doesn't exist in my world anymore so i started over....sooo 09 rap up leggoooo

January: got stupid drunk at a house party on new yrs...decided to take the semester off n work

Februaray: make up to break up w/ perry BLAH um ok valentines day yea yea yea....next

March: pretty sure i almost got shot in the southside for st paddys day lmao

April: umm no clue lol

May: everybody came bakk from skool =) yayyy relationship started spiraling to hell at this point...

June: got really close with shaynna....quayla was bakk in my life full throtal...me n shimmy werent hanging as much =( MY BDAY STUPID DRUNK!! and me n perry fell the f out! terrible end to my bday! ughhh watevs and we finalized that divorce lls

July: getting really close with ppl. MET ERRICKA! started my process =) met 6 amazing ppl!

August: started at Carlow =) i like it a lot for a really small catholic skool

Sept: same shit diff month lol

October: owlll good month...met a special loser =) finished process! POW! drama started smdh...

November: fell out really bad w/ quayla...(some friendships are unmendable)

December: winter break! pretty boring i worked a lot and that was it lol

January 2010: brought in the new year with ERRICKA! and starting yet another semester at carlow...i think lol

needless to say i lost a lot of "friends" in 2009 but gained so much more. relationships were devoured and new ones began! relationships also got a lot stronger i must say. 2010 will hopefully be a much better year for everyone & my blog as well! soo tell ur friends to tell their friends to FOLLOW MY BLOG & follow me on twitter @flashing7lights =)

Happy New Year

So last night was New Years eve. I was supposed to go to Cleveland and celebrate with 3 of my friends...but I stayed in Pittsburgh and celebrated with three of my friends lol! We had fun!! I learned that mascato is amazing and that if you put orange juice in ur mouth followe by VOX and swallow you will ONLY taste the OJ lmaoooo. So Erricka, Warren, Jeremey & I went to barroom for the night. Here's pics from b4...








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Two Thousand && Ten

So this is my new NEW blogg! This is just a test from my phone!! Just a little something to get this one started! I'll discuss my new years and my 09 recap in 2 bloggs later today =) I miss this!!!



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